Happy Dreams ~

I have begun to dream again; daydreams. Daydreams that are full of happy feelings; exciting opportunities. I am creating; following my purpose. I find joy in my purpose as I know it is what God has planned for me. To share my gifts and passions with others; others who have experienced a life similar to my own. I just cannot go fast enough to fulfill my dreams; fulfill the feeling that is within me. 

Prior to my intensive therapy time in Montana a few weeks ago, I was struggling to keep a steady schedule; to maintain my diet; to maintain an exercise routine; to feel a sense of accomplishment each day. My therapy time, as always, helped me to heal and to come home with new tools. The most important one, I believe, is that I gave my inner child the new role of storyteller. She is so happy. She is eager to tell her story. With her in a new place, I feel life is changing. 

I am still stuck in my house. It still has not sold. But, I cannot wait until it sells to keep growing, developing my projects, and staying focused. I love being back in the mindset I have known most of my life. In the past it was a place to escape; to pursue my dreams away from my abusers; away from the trauma. Now, I do not have to hide. I can share my dreams with others; own them; make them mine; and I am sharing them from the heart not just from my mind. I do not have to safeguard them anymore. 

As a Christian, I know the feeling of joy. The joy of knowing God is with me and that I am fulfilling His plan. I am praying that the house will sell; praying hard. But I know all is in His time. I know that all I have been through is being put to good use. 

I am finding happiness. I am feeling happiness and excitement for today and for the future. I am so grateful you are here…you are helping me fulfill my dream.

~ julie

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Note: JM Lane is NOT a mental health professional, nor does she carry a license to practice medicine. Posts, blogs, and content are based on JM Lane’s personal experiences, perceptions, and reflections. By no means does any material convey what others should or should not do.