Time to Pack ~

If you read my previous blog, you know that I decided to take my house off the market and lease it. So, I am busy packing up the house. I am dividing my material goods by the things I will sell on Craigslist and eBay, items that I will pass on to my daughters, and the remaining items that I will keep to put in my future tiny home. Just when I think I have gotten rid of all the stuff that simply sits on a shelf and collects dust, I discover that I still have so much to go to sort. I have about six large tubs of stuff that I still need to go through with items that belonged to my parents. Much of it I am still not sure what I want to do. 

That question of “what do I do” resonates often in my mind. My decision to discover who I am begs that question frequently. What do I want? 

I continue to ponder so much. Packing and unpacking. Packing boxes. Packing up what was. Packing up the person who I have never been. Packing up feelings, experiences, hopes, dreams, failures, and events. I am packing boxes while I am unpacking myself. Learning what I want, who I am. What have I been holding on to in hopes of having something that never was; hoping for a relationship that never was. 

I will continue my packing and unpacking this week as I prepare to lease my home for the next two years. I look forward to the journey that lies ahead; Airbnb-ing for the next couple of years until the economy turns and the builders are no longer building homes in my little neck of the woods. 

I look forward to finalizing so much of this packing and unpacking ~ julie

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Note: JM Lane is NOT a mental health professional, nor does she carry a license to practice medicine. Posts, blogs, and content are based on JM Lane’s personal experiences, perceptions, and reflections. By no means does any material convey what others should or should not do.